Clean Your F*cking House B*tch

Ep. 76 - Feeling Alien / Receiving Downloads

April 22, 2023 Kevin Anderson
Clean Your F*cking House B*tch
Ep. 76 - Feeling Alien / Receiving Downloads
Show Notes Transcript

Do you ever feel like sometimes you get hints throughout your life on paths to journey or choices to make?  Perhaps ways and perspectives with which to approach a moment in your life?  When we're able to look inward and tune into the messages around us, it can steer us in a very beneficial direction.  

Lou:

Hello, and welcome to clean your fucking house bitch with Nancy, Kevin and Lou. In our program, we get real about the challenges of life and living your mind is the most powerful tool you have to ensure you are on your desired path for success and satisfaction. Yet, from the day you are born, you gradually and subconsciously fill it with tons of useless shit that gets in your way. Why is that? How can you clean that mess up, we'll show you how to get ready to clean your fucking house.

Kevin Anderson:

Hey, everybody, welcome back, we were just chatting. As usual, I feel like I open up at the same shit every single time, we were just chatting, and here's our ideas. I've been reading a lot of books, and getting kind of like a lot of synchronicities recently. And that's kind of going to be the subject at least to start and see where the conversation takes us. But the messages that I feel like I'm receiving and downloading are all about balance, which I think we've probably had episodes on balance in the past, maybe a different kind of balance. Essentially, it is bridging the gap between our human body, our human selves, and then also our soul or spirit or consciousness, whatever you consider that energy that carries on after life. And my thought going into this was like, Well, I guess, to take it back a little bit for years, I have been working to raise my vibration and I resonated more with the energetic or the ethereal or astral part of myself more than the physical incarnation that I am currently in this physical reality. A lot of this world doesn't make sense to me, the way that society operates, the way that we're so focused on physical things and accomplishments, and I guess certain types of accomplishments, the love for money and power, a lot of that doesn't make sense to me. So I kind of detached from that for a while and, you know, worked on manifesting a different type of reality, and worked on trying to raise myself raise my vibration. And now I'm at a point where I feel like I have successfully done that to an extent, but I kind of have setbacks. Quite often I feel like with physical reality. And so to start the conversation, I just wanted to bring up the thought of trying to understand who your true self is, but then ground yourself enough to be able to experience this life. So I don't know where to take it from there. I mean, what are your guys's thoughts on that?

Nancy:

This is another thing we say when we introduce subjects often is there's a lot. There's a lot in what you just said, yeah, there's a lot there. But what occurred to me, I guess, first I'm gonna hit because we'll come back to all the other is, you know, the setbacks almost felt like they were coming with some disappointment or regret, and just have the sense of reality check that they're normal, like, we talk about the ups and downs and that we expect things not to be perfect all the time and not horrible all the time. And so, you're going to have a setback. It's,

Kevin Anderson:

you know, what it feels like, to me, though, it feels I feel like I've developed this ability to not feel like myself, I guess like I truly don't feel like being human, I guess doesn't resonate with me in a lot of ways. So I was almost kind of detaching from the idea of, of being a human. Like, kind of like not wanting to live through that. That filtered perception that I feel like we all have in reality. With the setbacks though what I was what it really is, and you can give me feedback on this. It was almost like the more that I tried to escape physical reality or the life of a human being, things would happen that would pull me back, almost like like life is saying, No, you're meant to experience these things. But then it becomes very intense, because I'm fighting it right. And what we try to resist persists, and even more. So the more that we resist, so not only, I think a lot of it is mental, a lot of it, you know, regrets, grief, things like that. But when you take things head on, and you work through them and like so I have some disconnections with humanity or whatever, like working through that processing that instead of rejecting it, or looking at it through a negative lens. Does that make sense? Yeah,

Nancy:

I mean, that helps. Because you're not, you're not letting it be a negative thing. And maybe it's maybe the being pulled back is, because there's a lesson in there, like, there's still something you can connect on, you miss something like, Yep, it's a knock upside the head.

Kevin Anderson:

And that's kind of like the concept like, life happens for you, not to you. You know, we always talk about how when we have these experiences, good and, and bad as we coined them, there's always a reason. There's always some type of deeper meaning that you can gather from what you go through.

Nancy:

It's there for you, right? And that's what you're saying. You're trying to connect to it because it's there. Most of the time. We just keep pushing through. We humans just keep pushing through. So we don't pay attention to the signs and the cues of what could take us to a different place. I was gonna say more comfortable or at ease, or I don't know, when you when you feel like you're in this not you place what does it feel like?

Kevin Anderson:

calmer? What do you mean, like not you place?

Nancy:

Well, you said, I feel like I'm not me. I feel like I'm when I'm

Kevin Anderson:

in that state of mind. Yeah. Um, it feels like rejection in a way it feels like it's hard to say, I guess. Good question. It's difficult to describe.

Lou:

It's kind of any emotion at all, kind

Kevin Anderson:

of like an intuition, like a knowing, right. Like, understanding purpose. And one of the challenges for me is like, knowing, knowing certain things or feet, I guess I I work more through emotion. So feeling certain things, but not being able to communicate them verbally. Because it's so difficult to put feelings into words. At least for me, it is. So it's kind of like, I don't know, detachment resent resent would be a good one resent for my human self. Wow,

Nancy:

I didn't expect it to be judgmental. Yeah, to be more at ease, I honestly thought yeah, that you're reaching out to so you feel like this physical body is holding you back. Because you feel often that you can be more in tune with this. Outer are different sphere of life. I hate to say higher, because I don't, that assumes better and it's maybe better for you. But it's you know, everything's different for everybody,

Kevin Anderson:

I think higher from the viewpoint of vibration, and frequency, you know, but, so, I'm still going strong with the whole lifestyle change that I've incorporated right now, drinking, working out, every day, eating well. And, although things aren't perfect, and there are setbacks, like I actually do feel more, it's so weird, like, I can literally talk about my human form. From another perspective, like, I'm more in tune with myself and my body as awareness, more connected, you know, instead of like detached and resentful towards myself, because it's like it's different knowing something versus taking action on things and so you can tap into this higher understanding of things but if you don't change anything in your physical form, then you're going to have this mindset or I don't know if mindset is the right word, but this understanding of something but then you're doing the same shit going through the motions living in autopilot. And that was another thing when I brought up ego autopilot to me as ego autopilot it's like, here's my comfort zone. I'm gonna stay there because going out of it's scary and what happens and I don't know, right? Yeah. I lost my train of thought.

Nancy:

It's right you're right with this. What this makes me think of is someone else's week the same thing but they verbalized it in a different way. So let me share that and see if you feel aligned in some way. She wanted to set a goal for the week to be to connect more with being contrary is what is what she said. And I'm like, alright, what does that mean to you being contrary and Ultimately it was being okay with failure being okay with not getting things happening the way I always think they are being okay with saying no, because I can't do everything like, I feel the same is true and that this desire to find some kind of balance that doesn't really exist. And what it is is acceptance is inner acceptance and you are feeling the inner acceptance, by treating your body better by beating it up the way you were before you were like, I just feel like blob the whole frickin time and I'm not inspired for anything. And even though you want to be separate from that body, taking care of it is helping you reach a different level.

Kevin Anderson:

I'm connecting more to it. I'm living more through it. There you go. And I feel like there's I don't there's almost like an empathy there. Because I feel like as human beings, we're all very flawed. I think the way that we look at life and the way that we interact with one another, and the way that we prioritize certain things over other things, I think a lot of that is very flawed. Not to judge like, yeah, maybe in a judgmental way. But I'm not intending to come off that way. But like, it is, it's almost like, we're, we're all children, and we're all learning and we're trying to do the best we can. But we all make mistakes, and you know, so it's like a level of empathy there for who I am, and making mistakes and going through and trying to learn, you know, it's not like when we when we incarnate in these bodies, we remember all of our past lives, or all the lessons that we've learned or what our karma balances, like, we don't know any of that we start fresh.

Nancy:

Do know it. And I think that's the whole thing about that learning to listen to and trust one's inner self. These experiences are with you. They're there somewhere. So if you can trust and sometimes it feels like a blind trust, but it's not.

Kevin Anderson:

No. Yeah. And I agree. I think ultimately we do. But I'm like, I think we have to tap into it. I think we have to align ourselves with that in order to have that knowing. I think that there's intuition that guides us along the way. But I do think it's very easy to not pay attention to the signs you get, I think it's very easy to just keep your head down and keep going through the motions a shit instead of putting yourself in this state of being to be able to accept, because there's been years where I've made, you know, shitting Miss shitty decision after shitty decision with what I was doing with my life. And, you know, you start to feel lost in a way. But then something guides you back. So I guess you're right, like, there, it's there. But if you get yourself in the right place, it's there a lot more often, at least from your perspective, you know,

Lou:

in case any of our listeners are wondering, Hey, is Lou on this episode? Yes, I'm here. But I this is very much a Kevin topic so that no surprise lose a little dumbfounded or challenged with participating. Because

Kevin Anderson:

I'm like, he doesn't know what to say. Yeah.

Lou:

Well, Kevin is our spiritual right brain and our regular listeners I'm sure know this for sure they're like loose, probably not even going to be able to say anything here. But you know, where I'm going in my own mind is relating it back to some of the things we did talk about because much of what you shared to me feels like it relates to the topic when where we're at versus where we want to be when we're disconnected. There's a odd feeling which is usually a negative feeling anxiety and all that but your feelings are what you're experiencing could be you know, you say disconnect, I'm thinking oh, there's still some growth or some Well, there's always growth but there's some Kevin is still on a journey to find something and there's still that disconnect that he's experiencing

Nancy:

Yeah, yeah. I think I think so. Yeah. But also

Lou:

it also brings me back to even our last episode with success can be felt or achieve and I know we talked about it as a journey not a destination but that feeling of accomplishment even of what we want to accomplish can happen at any time any age any day. You never know when it's gonna hit well and it almost feels like one accomplish it doesn't end

Nancy:

by another as we evolve. Yeah, well, and

Lou:

what I mean by hit is Oh, I think I'm now closer on on on the path that I even want because he I think of it as a journey not a destination, but even the journey which I'll equate visually as a path or a street or a road. If word Not on that road, we're near the road, we're on a slightly different road, a road that cuts through who knows, you know that that can contribute

Kevin Anderson:

to? Paved isn't gravel

Lou:

is. Yeah, as it narrows it why, you know that in and of itself contributes to a bit of angst. And maybe when you feel you're not right on that road completely, you know, that could be part of that feeling.

Kevin Anderson:

I think it's challenging because it's so abstract, and there's no definition. And it's probably different for everybody. It's like, so even being goal oriented or working towards something, you almost have to follow intuition as far as spiritual growth goes, because what does it mean, to succeed at it? You know, what are the goals? What are the milestones? Are there any? We don't know? You know, I guess it's so it is just completely intuitive. And it's also subjective,

Lou:

may also touch on, we don't know, what we don't know, you know, that area of the psyche, and the, what we can't see vibration vibrations, you know, a lot of that stuff is just an when folks can't see it, or hear it, or put a finger on it, it's much more difficult to understand and to grasp and to know,

Nancy:

our level of readiness, though. And you know, that readiness, like you guys both said, You're not afraid of death. I'm not afraid of death. But also, I'm not ready for it. I'm not, I'm not, you know, gonna live my life in a way that I could let that happen. Because I feel like I have too many things I'll do here still with his physical body, even though I want that spiritual connection at the same time. So it's that level of readiness, you have to be able to roll with whatever comes in the next day.

Kevin Anderson:

Yeah, more like acceptance. Yeah.

Lou:

You know, I found that interesting when you did share that, because I think meaning you Kevin shared death doesn't scare me. I think what I've experienced from conversations with other people and my observations through different networks that I'm part of, is the knee jerk reaction to that is someone is either suicidal or doesn't care about life. You know, that seems to be the knee jerk reaction that a lot of people have. And it's interesting, you bring it up, because you know, Nancy and I both know you very well, we know that that's not the case at all. What I equate that with is, you are building I don't know if courage is the right word, but but you're getting you're building a comfort level or security or something that's also part of that journey. That could be you know, when I'm when I'm completing my spiritual being, and I'm kind of reaching here, but you know, that that might almost bring with it a feeling of invulnerability? Or, like, I think what you shared, because I, I know what's on the other side, or I have a good sense, or I strongly believe what's on the other side, is nothing to fear, you know, that in and of itself just gives us courage.

Kevin Anderson:

Yeah, sure. I agree. When came to mind, for me, as you were saying, that is connection, like connection to what exists beyond and after. And it all happened for me, like I grew up, like, feeling very lost spiritually. Like, I didn't grow up with any type of like, religious background or spiritual background. And everyone around me did. You know, and everyone who was there had a lot of conviction for their beliefs, even though a lot of them believe different things. But it wasn't until I started, like meditating, and then started reading and learning about different things. And I think that's part of it is just gathering knowledge, and then allowing what resonates with you to stay with you and, and continue to develop and evolve your perception of things. And yeah, for me, it's just I've gotten to a point where, not that I don't like value, life, but just I don't know, I feel like I just kind of understand the deeper like, what the deeper meaning is for me of life. And then what happens after life and like, what my purpose, what part of my purpose is here because I also am still looking for purpose. It gets very confusing, very, very involved and multifaceted.

Nancy:

You can be involved in both of those aspects of life at the same time, right? Like you have a purpose that you feel convicted in, but you also know there's more. You haven't exercised all Love Your purpose yet? So. So in this present moment, you have a conviction of why you're here. But also then what are the rest of the years in front of you about? It sounds like both of those are in your mind at the same time.

Kevin Anderson:

Yeah, it's very conflicting sometimes.

Nancy:

I mean, I totally grew up with a spiritual aspect of our intention through religion was to work towards atonement, atonement, being at one meant at one that with that all knowing all being all, you know, spiritual place that we can feel safe. And I guess you can feel a level of atonement at all phases of your physical life. And

Lou:

it evolves. I see what you did there. Atonement at one minute. Awesome. Good job. Oh, what do you guys think of in terms of purpose? Is that something we don't know, but strive for, but kind of have a good sense of when we're getting on the right track? Or is it something that could change over time, sometimes? My own thoughts on that,

Nancy:

I think both. And then also, I think there's a third aspect that some people just know, they're very convicted, that my purpose in being here is excellent that, you know, my goal in life is and, and have a conviction in it. Whereas I feel like it's gonna evolve over time.

Kevin Anderson:

I think we, my belief on that, currently, is that we incarnate here for purpose, I think that we plan out our incarnation with our soul group or our higher selves, or when we're more tapped into Universal Consciousness, or Christ consciousness or whatever you want to consider it. And we have soul contracts that we signed to come here. And we have certain areas of purpose, but I think we also experienced free will. But if we get too far off the road, whoo, one of the 50 roads, you mentioned, that there are things that occur that bring us back to the path that we're supposed to be on. I do think that there are, there is purpose for all of us. But I think we have to fight through a lot of nonsense to figure that out. Because part of my perception of reality, and what we learn as we're growing up, and what we're programmed to believe in what we're trained to be doing that stuff, a lot of it doesn't resonate with me. So it's like, what is purpose? I don't think purpose is, I don't know, it's hard. I don't think I don't think purpose is just like, you know, go to school, go to college, get a job, have babies, and then that's it. I think it's deeper than that. I think that type of purpose that I mentioned, is the very human perception of life. I think it's much deeper than that.

Nancy:

But all of those activities contribute to that, deeper the experiences that we have, or where that knowledge and ability to gain and understand that next level comes from. It's like when we talk about someone who's stuck or frozen, they can't grow, they don't move from that space. And so these are the logical human steps, roughly, you know, that people follow

Kevin Anderson:

or log logical? Yeah,

Lou:

that's a good there are examples of people who don't follow that traditional path. Ya know, they'll break free and do something different. I mean, you hear about it in the news. We don't I assume we don't hear about the ones that do that, that don't achieve a certain something that helps them to get to the media, because they're not in the media, we don't know about it. So it's hard to know, the degree of success would say not following that traditional path. But even with that traditional path, fortunately, at least, sometimes I flip between the whole is our destiny foretold or free will, is the fact that though, we can still choose say what material we want to learn, you know, when we get to college, say choose your major, choose this or that. And then how long you want to go for where you want to go. There's certain aspects at least even with that traditional path that you can hopefully, get more in line with your purpose. Yeah, agreed.

Kevin Anderson:

I think we also set ourselves up like, I think in order for us to fulfill what we're here to do, we can't have intervention, like externally from beings or ourselves, our higher selves, but I think that we put little nuggets along the way I think Those turn into synchronicities to let us know that you're on the right path. So again, having to tune in and pay attention to the signs that you get. But also, one of the biggest things for me right now it's like, in what areas of my life am I experiencing, like flow? Which areas seem to be flowing, right? Like, there's nothing blocking this, it's working out really well, it feels really good, it feels natural. And I can push and I can keep pushing a little bit harder in those areas. versus where do I feel like I'm getting resistance in my life? Like, where am I really struggling to fucking deal with something that's happening or a certain area? That's where it's, to me, it's like, okay, something has to be off, because you feel it, whether it's anxiety, or sadness, or grief or whatever, like, those, you shouldn't have to just accept those feelings. And I think a lot of us do, I think we, you know, pick and choose our battles in life. But if there's an area that's not vibing, with us, and it could be anything, it could be a relationship, it could be a job, it could be maybe a place that you live. If that's not working out, maybe it's time for change. But then change is also difficult. But again, we talk about, like feeling uncomfortable, when you're not in that flow state, when you're experiencing resistance in life. It's uncomfortable, but then making changes to so I guess you have to choose what level of uncomfortable you want. Where do you want the discomfort to be from from something you feel helpless and victimized by in your life, or pushing hard and then feeling uncomfortable? Because you're trying?

Nancy:

Or the unknown? I feel like for me right now, I'm experiencing one of those. And I'm not letting go of one thing because of the unknown on the other end, and the unknown will unfold itself. If I could let go, I know this logically, still in that place of struggle?

Kevin Anderson:

Yep. Yeah, it can be. It can be challenging.

Lou:

It's funny, we talk a lot about needing to be uncomfortable to get out of our comfort zone to go wherever we want to go, etc. But based on what you just shared, it almost seems like well, if you're moving towards something that brings you into a flow state, something that you just naturally love, and get your dopamine and serotonin flowing, then it would almost seem like that wouldn't be uncomfortable. Now, I still agree that it's changes hard,

Kevin Anderson:

might not be uncomfortable, but the transition might be very uncomfortable. True. And again, that's the journey part of it, you know, and then also an anti, that's a really good point. Because how do you know? How do you know if it's the right thing to do at that time, you know, you could end up in a worse spot where there's more resistance in your life, and you don't know. And for me part of that the solution to that is trying to tap into something to help guide you, you know, not having to feel like you're alone, and completely separate from everyone else and everything else. But tapping in and, you know, whatever that is, if it's meditation, or prayer or whatever, but kind of like putting that energy out there to receive that I think we tend to a lot of us, we really push for self sufficiency, right? Like society will tell you that you need to be self sufficient. We've all been kids and relied on our parents to do everything for us for just our mere survival. And as we grow into adults, we feel this need to be self sufficient. And we don't need help from everyone. And I think it probably varies for everybody. But I think it's important for us to put ourselves in a position of receiving, like it's okay to receive. It's okay to help others and it's okay to receive and a lot of us may look at life or the challenges we're facing. And reaching out for help. may seem like we're burdening somebody else. But another perspective. Another way to look at that is there's no better joy in life. I feel like then helping someone that you love. And so if you don't reach out, you're not allowing that person to reach their joy by helping you.

Nancy:

Yeah, it's all of that bundled together and like, where's the line life is in the gray area for sure because you do need to be independent and self sufficient, but that includes knowing how to be open to and include others in your life.

Kevin Anderson:

There has to be a balance because you can get to a point where you completely feel like you don't need anyone or anything. And you might start pushing people away, and pushing away good opportunities and could end up very lonely. So I think it is a balance, I think you do need to do everything in your power to do the best that you can, whatever that is for you. You know, push yourself, do well, by your own means. But then yeah, like, if there's a huge challenge, ask someone find someone for help.

Lou:

Yeah,

Nancy:

I definitely I could say I talk it out, I have people too are willing to, to talk these things out with me. Thank goodness, right. And I have a history of waiting too long, I'll stay in something longer than I should, because I want to make sure that I've given it the benefit of the doubt. You know, so all of that clarity level is, is becoming crystal clear. Whereas I could have trusted my intuition and maybe done something sooner, but it's okay. Because I'll feel okay about the time when it comes. Yep.

Lou:

Yeah, that's a tough one. I mean, I can completely relate to when we have those transitions in life, moving from one thing to a different thing, whether it's relationships, job, a place of where we live, etcetera. It it can feel like art, is the grass greener, will the grass be greener when I make that move? I mean, that's always I'm sure the question we always ask. And obviously, it's hard to know, after the fact whether or not staying would have been worse or or leaving was worse. Because even if we feel like, oh, I made a wrong decision, the grass feels less green here. But maybe the grass would have become less green. Had we stayed in comparison, like it's, it's such a hard thing to evaluate. But, you know,

Kevin Anderson:

well think about it, right. So just say you're in your yard, and say your grass is like, you know, there's some green patches, but it's a little shitty. And you're like, oh, and the distance. Oh, that grass looks really green. I'm gonna start walking over there, and you walk over there. And holy shit, you're knee deep in mud, right? This grass sucks. There's no fucking grass. This is just shit. You keep walking, maybe then you're in literal shit. That's a field of shit. You're up to your waist and shit. And you can stay there, you can hunker down and remain in that ship field and be looking back at where you came from. Or you can keep pushing on. And as you push on, maybe there is a very grassy field up ahead. So it's not just point a point B, it's just again, and evolution, like consistently evolving. And if you know something isn't right for you, it's like, if you know something's not right for you now. Why? Like, do you want to stick it out just to feel comfortable? or push? And maybe things get a little fucking worse for you for sure. But then you push harder and you move forward? Just because you're you're weighing what's the lesser evil? What's the least shitty thing even though both both things are shitty, I say fuck that, like, push for great push for grand push for wonderful. Don't just accept something because something else might be worse. If it's not good for you, then find something good for you.

Nancy:

Yeah, separate yourself, and then the rest will follow.

Lou:

I know for me personally, and I, I have a feeling a lot of folks feel similarly is I always want to do my best. And I truly believe everyone does. Whatever situation we're in, I will do my best I will make this work. I you know, there's always a positive intention associated with where we're at. And it's not that it's hard to recognize when it's not going so well. But I think we're like, I really want to make sure I tried every avenue to make something work because maybe I didn't try something that I could have. And it might work out in the end. I mean, it's such, again, it's a very hard thing to both measure. When you make a change whether or not that change was a good one or a bad one, right one wrong one. And maybe it isn't about that maybe he's just changed for the sake of change. But

Unknown:

it is hard

Lou:

to make it because we want to make sure that we did our absolute best with where we're at to begin with.

Kevin Anderson:

Yeah, I think and I think it kind of depends on when you're looking back at it though, right? Because like, if you make a change and it ends up feeling worse and you look back at it, then then it's like, oh, that was not a good change that I made. But in the future. If things are working out for you and you push to that point where you're like, Okay, Hey, this is fucking great. And then you look back, it's like, okay, that changes didn't seem good. But now it seems like it was the best thing I ever did. But also, Lou, I think with, like, what you're saying I empathize. And I feel like I understand you enough to know some of the things that you are talking about or referencing, like that you've gone through. And I feel like I've gone through similar things. And I think Nancy has to, in a lot of different ways. And I agree, like, it's not easy. But you almost have to tap into, like, you're the understanding the feeling of it, right? Like you can keep like, you can keep trying different things, hopefully not the same thing over and over again, right? You're trying different things to make something work? And is it resonating with you? Like, does it still bring you joy, at least in some aspects? Like what what is the goal? What are you working towards? Is it is the motivating factor material? Or is it deeper? Is it ingrained within you, you know,

Lou:

plus, something may happen, as a result of that change that does bring you somewhere else. In other words, you made a change, that change may not have been what you thought it was, but then that leads to another change, you happen to meet somebody as a result or whatever, then you go, Whoa, well, I may not have met that person, or encountered that opportunity had I not made that change, even though that little interim change was not for the best. And there again, therein lies where it's a little difficult to measure whether or not changes are, are in our best interest. But you know what, that's life. I mean, I guess bottom line is,

Nancy:

any change is taking regress, again, versus being stuck or frozen. So it's action.

Lou:

And therein lies the rub. Yeah, if you're feeling stuck as a result of that change, and that probably means you need to keep changing, going, keep changing. Yeah, and

Kevin Anderson:

just remember, like, at the end, it's all the same anyways, right? Because we're all gonna die.

Nancy:

That's why it's called evolution. And as well as evolving our physical body. Let's go back to what you said, when we opened up today, your physical body is going to die, but your your, your spiritual mindfulness self is going to continue on in some way. So

Kevin Anderson:

unluckily I consider, like regret, to be something that is entirely physical, within our human selves. So I think even if we do get to a point, and we have regrets, before we die, once we die, and we're back connected, or back to where we came from, I don't think we're going to look back and have regrets. But maybe there is a life review. And maybe we look at everything we've gone through, and all the different emotions that we've made other people feel, and maybe we have to feel them. Who knows.

Nancy:

We will and I will

Lou:

end it, you know what I think you touched upon it, and maybe taking it a step further is when we're there, meaning when we're no longer here? I think it's really about did I impact other people in a positive way to help them live a better life? Did I at least do my best? And was I a good person? You know, to me, it's always about values, morals, ethics, you know, just being a good person, a decent person, you know, it may not result in enriches and millions and billions, because I think oftentimes, that may come about from unscrupulous methods. But therein also begs the question, well, that's not what life is about. Anyway, it isn't about collecting millions and billions and all that it really is about just living the best life that we feel we can. But for me, the foundation when we're there, at the end of it all, when we leave this planet, this earth, this dimension, this whatever, is dead, it was a good person.

Nancy:

So I guess we each have to ask ourselves that every day then because it's all about you, there won't be a question if we strive to do it now.

Lou:

Especially with what feels to me is so much negativity in the world. And I don't know if it's gotten worse, but it just feels like it has maybe because it's gotten louder, but louder for sure. It's gotten louder, but avoiding that or otherwise. Not pandering to that catering to that letting that affect us. Well, I think is also part of it.

Kevin Anderson:

Yeah, what we give our energy and attention to grows. Right. So I think that's a big lesson that we all need to learn because I think in the on the path for knowledge, we can get lost, going down rabbit holes, or something that doesn't serve us. So being a good person but that Also, what actions are we taking that, that raise us up? Versus what do we feel? shittier? Having experienced? Exactly, yeah, I think that could be a pretty decent guide to, you know, what makes you feel not like, you know, eating something you know you shouldn't, and getting that immediate gratification, but like more medium or long term, like what makes you feel like you've accomplished something. What makes you feel that you have succeeded with small baby steps, what makes you feel good, like truly good about yourself and what you've done?

Nancy:

Ridiculous or not? What's comes to mind right now is two things. One, the golden rule, you know, do unto others as, as you would have them do unto you. And if we can each face each day in that way, all that other peripheral stuff that's happening out there will have less of an impact on us.

Lou:

And always approach everything with an open mind. Kevin touched upon the like knowledge, quest for knowledge or something to do with knowledge. Well, we none of us know everything. None of us don't know how much of something we know, we only know what we know. So if we, it's important to be open to other opinions, other beliefs, other things, even if they may conflict with ours, or otherwise, we believe they may be wrong, but the fact is, end of the day, does it all matter. Simply listening and being open and being kind, I think pays a lot more dividends, even if we are right, and the other side is wrong with something. You know, I can't think of an example off the top of my head, but it could be something simple. You know, grass is green? I don't know. No grass is blue. Well, does it matter?

Nancy:

So balance is that thing Kevin was questioning and maybe it doesn't exist, but but each day we can evaluate where we are in the teetering of balancing and juggling of life.

Kevin Anderson:

Thanks for bringing us back to the topic we were supposed to be talking about this whole time. Lou, thanks for suffering through this

Lou:

abstractly thought I wouldn't be able to say two words.

Kevin Anderson:

I thought you did great, dude. I'm very proud of you let it loose, stepping outside of his comfort zone. Commenting on super random thoughts that I had. And I have

Lou:

you to thank for that. You and Nancy, welcome how I grew up.

Kevin Anderson:

Awesome. Cool. Well, thanks for tuning in everybody. And we'll see you all next time. Bye for now.